anti-matter of hope (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} joemess) wrote,@ 2007-09-17 22:08:00 |
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the bottle of pills rolls off the counter and the arm falls off the bed
like an old film noir
lately i am at a loss. i got a ticket for not wearing my seatbelt the other day. the cop may as well have pointed a gun at me and robbed me for what it's going to cost. not that i ever have that much cash on me. so i am punishing myself by not spending any money on anything, or at least trying. i shouldn't deprive s though, it's not her fault. but we've been eating out and getting too many desserts lately, we've both gained weight. i have bills i haven't paid and papers piled up around me. there is so much not to care about. shallow surface. surface depression or deep sea depression? monsters or guppies?
like an old film noir
lately i am at a loss. i got a ticket for not wearing my seatbelt the other day. the cop may as well have pointed a gun at me and robbed me for what it's going to cost. not that i ever have that much cash on me. so i am punishing myself by not spending any money on anything, or at least trying. i shouldn't deprive s though, it's not her fault. but we've been eating out and getting too many desserts lately, we've both gained weight. i have bills i haven't paid and papers piled up around me. there is so much not to care about. shallow surface. surface depression or deep sea depression? monsters or guppies?
