got to do something. want to listen to records. s is aggravated by me, any record i play. want to read, but often disappointed, trudging through. tired all the time. sleeping, napping too much. got to get rid of some stuff. the usual situation. just want to nap, contemplate doing things i don't do. don't want to do i guess. can't follow through or do the necessary work for anything. lazy. never learned to play guitar, never learned a foreign language. don't believe in anything enough to do anything. just want to be a star for no reason. i should have been paris hilton.